Sometimes we get so caught up with our past conditioning, that we do not know where to lay claim of our own authenticity. After all, all that we know, all that we see, perceive and understand are not our own conjuring but a mishmash of do’s and don’t’s that we have all been molded into becoming.
As we venture into the path of discoveries, the true ‘us,’ is buried deep within the layers and outwardly, we are the parents who created us, the siblings we admired, the influencers we worshipped and the dream to become more and more like them: famous, beautiful, intelligent etc., the list is endless and rarely, we hear ourselves saying, ‘I want to be me.’
In the pursuit of discovering us, we stumble upon the stranger within and try and make friends with this person unfamiliar to us- sometimes, we manage to push past the layers and end up loving the new person within, to give him/her permission to come out of the shadows and some other times, the whole process of starting all over again can become so overwhelming, that we postpone our authentic emergence, delaying the prospect of us, living life as we wish it.
Most of what goes on in daily life is a conjuring of sorts whether of our government, our schools, our social media platforms that we are going further and further away from our truth. And it has become such that, our truth is about becoming part of a movement that “supposedly,” voices our authenticity, shouting and claiming the right of one individual against the backdrop of an ocean of duds. That famous saying, ‘In the kingdom of the blind, the one-eyed man is king,’ screams the perfect adage to describe the state we are in: we are all blindly relying on that one-eyed man to lead us to the light. No one dares to be authentic because being authentic means being different, uncommon, separate, uninvolved with the normalcy of living.
What if, we took accountability of our own actions whether or not, they are represents of the best of us? What if, we refuse to remain in the dark and gift ourselves the vision of our foresight and rid ourselves the need to be someone we are not? And, so what if we don’t meet the expectations of everyone around us, as long as we meet our own expectations of ourselves! What if, we told ourselves that darkness is simply the absence of light and that we have nothing to fear for we were all incubated in darkness in our mother’s womb until we came out to the outer world. What if, we reminded ourselves that that same darkness is the space in which our incubation nourished and supported our growth, something that we conveniently forgot as we exchanged hands with the need to be seen?
Now, don’t get me wrong, I am not asking you to become some ‘good vibes hippie,’ or some ‘take-it-easy,’ policy person but instead, to take accountability of what is, push past the discomfort and allow, allow, allow…
Fearing the unknown and fearing the need to claiming your greatness is not a consequence of how you were conditioned to becoming but about how much you want to remain chained to your limited beliefs – this is your birthright. Only you can decide whether you are complete, whole and enough just the way you are…
Only you can say that it’s time to depend on yourself and give up the need to rely on others as crutches, projecting your victimised state of mind and ridding yourself the need to be enough in someone else’s eyes.
Rise to your power and claim your right to be you and make it, the mission of your life.
May you ascend in your flight!
Art by Sophie Wilkinson
SUJATA NANDY WORLD GURUKUL